In The Blink..

In the blink of an eye. That’s how fast this year has gone. My parents warned me that as you get older time goes faster.

I’m actually okay with it; I live my life thinking about the future. The faster time goes, the closer I get, if that makes sense at all. Today is the one day that I truly think about the past.

When I think about my year I keep going back to people asking me “how are you?” It is probably one of the most spoken phrases in American culture. It is usually asked in a way that's just as cursory as “Hello,” and is answered with the equally cursory “Fine, and you?”

But this year was different; when people asked me how I was I told them. This has been the hardest year of my life till now. I have been beaten down by a bad percentile, bad people and personal bad decisions. But why do I define my mood by all this?

Sometimes, when I am done with studying and working, the person inside me responds with another question: “But what about your family?” I usually feel like a total ass for not considering them in my response.

Instead of looking back on the year and viewing it as a total disaster because of work, I look back at the year as total bliss because I have the most amazing family a man could hope for: I have seen my younger brother grow into a little man, and my dad getting older with a different personality. My mom is the most caring mother I could hope for and we are blessed.

So next time someone asks how I'm doing, I'm going to reply “I am great” -- as long my family truly is great.

June 2012 bring everyone the happiness they deserve.